My weekend of gratitude!

OMG I’m excited to write this blog!

I realised earlier today that in the past few months I have had some AMAZING opportunities come my way but that I haven’t been acting grateful for them at all. I was kind of horrified when I realised this because I don’t like to take life for granted but I totally have been!

In the past couple of months I have moved into the pre-production stages of both a travel television series and a feature length documentary. You’d think that with all of that happening I’d be jumping up and down screaming my head off but I haven’t been! It’s so weird, whenever I have received any good news lately I’ve reacted by getting really anxious. Good news, as it turns out, is scary!! I realised that I don’t really trust it. I don’t know what to do with it. It doesn’t seem real. I feel like I need to hold back any excitement to make sure I’m not disappointed if/when it all turns out to be a giant load of steaming dog poo.

What’s up with that though???????

I have every reason to be excited and happy and grateful but instead I’ve been walking around with an eye twitch and procrastinating on doing yoga. WTF! This should be such an exciting time for me and I’ve been letting fear totally rob me of any joy.

Well not any more. At least, not this weekend. I’ve decided to have a weekend of gratitude!! I’m only four hours into it but so far it’s been great, I almost feel like I’m on a little happy high right now and I’m finally feeling excited about everything that I have going on and I trust that it will actually work out and be awesome!

… I recognise, of course, that sometimes things don’t work out but I really don’t think it’s going to help my cause to expect the worse. I need to beleive in myself more than anyone else does and expect my life to be awesome! …

I plan to do a lot of journaling this weekend about what I’m grateful for and just constantly be thinking about all the things I’m grateful for in my life. Also, any time I think a grumpy thought this weekend I’m going to find a way to make it a grateful one. Just a few minutes ago, for example, I got out of the shower and realised I had forgot to bring in any clean undies. My first thought was “grr, WHY did I do that?! That’s so annoying!” but then I changed it to “I’m grateful that I have clean undies in the next room and that I’m not in a camping shower” haha

Also when I was in the shower I rattled off a huge long list of things I was grateful for. At first I could think of anything but then it started to flow and I came up with about a million. Here are a few of them:

• I’m grateful that I have no student loan debt because my parents sacrificed their asses off for me
• I’m glad that I have a heating and blankets and hot showers to keep me warm through the winter
• I’m glad that I get to live in Australia!
• I’m grateful that Mother Earth/Father Sky/God has taken me under his wing and orchestrated so many miracles for film career lately
• I’m grateful for the producers and film makers who have taken a chance on me this year
• I’m grateful for next year because I already know it will be amazing!
• I’m grateful that whenever I have been without work, a new job has popped up for me right on time
• I’m grateful that I’ve already dated enough drug addicts and felons to learn my lesson!
• I’m grateful for Larry David
• I’m grateful for my life coach KB who is amazing and super hot (and who does phone consults!)
• I’m grateful that my friend Jess is in town and tomorrow we’re going to the movies
• I’m grateful to be able to go to the movies at all!
• I’m grateful that the things that stress me are really not a big deal
• I’m grateful for my healthy body
• I’m grateful for my amazing huge family that I love
• I’m grateful that my parents and brother are coming to visit me at Christmas
• I’m grateful for my Twitter/Facebook friends and blog readers!!